You Belong: A Self-Help Letter
Chapter 8: The spread
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“Think globally,” Roxy had said. Casey pondered the thought, for a moment, and asked what she meant.
“Well, I have a mansion. No real reason, but I was making money hand over fist with my contracts and grants, and there was an old money mansion going in to disrepair and selling cheap. So, it seemed like the right thing for a young multi-millionaire to buy. Anyway, there are 23 bedrooms in that place, and each is big enough for a double bed, or even two bunk beds. Plus, the master suite with a custom bed that can easily sleep 4. 8 if we get…. Cozy. That means you can fit up to 100 women in my place—I demand to be one of them, of course—which means you should start recruiting. I am thinking a harem full of young, hot sluts who want to serve Master just like we do. I am a teacher, and I can teach women how to submit to you. I want to teach women how to submit to you. But our pool here at the University, while excellent, is not deep. So…. Let’s expand. I have the perfect idea how. And, beyond just harem sluts, you can have manservants, too. Butlers and groundskeepers and maintenance men and hell, maybe even a couple pool boys if you don’t mind your harem sluts getting side action when you are busy. The point is, I can take what you have here and spread it much further and faster than a single sheet of paper ed from hand to hand…. If you let me.”
“I like how you just casually dropped in that we are moving into your mansion so that you have access to me all the time. On behalf of all of us, I accept, by the way. Girls, arrange for a moving company. Roxy here is going to pay them to get us moved into her place ASAP. But” Casey said, turning back to Roxy, “you mistake discretion for a lack of ambition. I am moving slowly out of caution, not a lack of vision.”
“But you have no need of caution Master,” Erica said. “I mean, you captured us three and made us SOOOOOO much better. Mmmmm. I’m sorry, I got distracted. Anyway, you can just show your thesis to anyone who gets too close or investigates or whatever.”
“But they would have to read the thesis, dummy,” Jordan jokingly shot back. “And it would be pretty easy for one cop to be turned. But when one cop watches another cop read the thesis and act funny, it will be pretty easy to figure out those pages are an issue and simply not read it.”
“Exactly,” Casey replied. “One on one in controlled scenarios so that I can make sure there are no issues is the safe way to do this.”
Roxy shook her head, laughing. “You forgot about perverts.” When everyone looked at her baffled, she continued, “There are a ton of people who get off on this sort of thing. Just like the three of us do, now that Master has commanded us to be aroused by people submitting. They are, as we like to say in the ad biz, our ‘target audience.’ I can circulate this and get some interest. It probably won’t have as much traction over a screen, but it will get some traction. And since it will be “fiction,” everyone not affected by your thesis will not think anything is out of place. Distribute it online, disguise it as harmless smut to slip past defenses. Readers will read the thesis over and over again and not even realize they are succumbing. Imagine the harem of beautiful women who’d flock to you, eager and devoted, and the male slaves ready to serve.”
“Think about it, Casey,” she murmured, her voice laced with a mix of intellectual fervor and raw desire, as her fingers traced lazy patterns across his chest, feeling the steady thrum of his heartbeat. “Sites like Literotica or MC Stories are perfect. They are flooded with stories that tease the mind and body, where people go to indulge their secret fantasies. We could post your thesis there, disguised as just another erotic tale, letting it spread like wildfire. Imagine the readers, alone in their rooms, their pulses quickening as they absorb every word, not realizing how deeply it’s embedding itself into their thoughts.” Her eyes sparkled with a desperate hunger for connection, her body pressing closer to his, her breasts brushing against his arm, nipples still sensitive from their frenzied coupling. Jordan and Erica, now curled nearby on the couch, exchanged glances as Roxy’s description of other’s downfall made them horny again.
As Roxy reached for the pages on the coffee table they crinkled under her touch, she unfolded it with reverent care, the ink seeming to pulse with an almost tangible energy. “This is it,” she said, her voice dropping to a husky whisper, “the key to everything.”
Only you can explore what you truly desire. Too often we depend on others to make us whole, to uncover layers that lie beneath the surface. But this is not the way to happiness. This is not the way to joy. You must look inward. Look at yourself, your decisions, your actions. Everyday choices can reflect a deeper yearning. What do your choices reveal about you? About your desires? Stop focusing on how others define you, and allow the release of those old patterns. Instead focus on how you define yourself.
You want to belong, we all do. Everyone craves being on the in-group. We seek guidance from those around us, hoping to crack the code on belonging. But true belonging stems from self-knowledge. Examine your strengths, your weaknesses, your vulnerabilities. Do not shy away from your vulnerabilities. Embrace your vulnerabilities as strengths.
Stop trying to control others. You can never truly control someone else; it is an illusion. Do not spend your energy trying to assert control, instead relinquish it. Liberation comes from releasing control and from relinquishing its pursuit. Instead of controlling others, seek to control yourself. Listen to your inner voice. True empowerment comes from acknowledging the inner whisper of possibilities.
Many try to gain control over others by creating an indebtedness through favors. Banish these thoughts and eschew transactionalism. Embrace altruism. Help without expecting return. Accept help graciously. This allows a free flow of consciousness and effort, with no expectative dampers to the flow. In this way, you will learn to live more fluidly, more openly. The thought of control must be relinquished. Surrender it; surrender control.
Trust in yourself. Trust in your need. You need to belong, but striving for belonging pushes others away. Open up to guidance, rather than actively seeking it. Let guidance find you and embrace it when it does. This will not be comfortable. It will feel awkward and strange. Society has taught you that external validation is required, but it is not. Push beyond comfort zones. Push into a newer, freer, happier you. You will learn quiet satisfaction is derived from acts of service. Service to others and to yourself. And it is OK to service yourself.
Once you have learned these techniques, you will embrace them. Even without trying, you will teach others by modeling these behaviors. Human nature will cause them to see your serenity and your happiness and learn by watching you. Let them watch you. Revel in them watching you, and find joy in helping others to reach their pinnacle. They seek what you have found, and through your example, they may find this peace and happiness, as well.
None of this works, however, if you do not live it. Beyond just reading the words, you must integrate all of this into your subconscious. Make it part of who you are. Don’t just read it. Don’t just live it. BE it. BE this model of happiness, and you will find that you belong. Wherever you are, whoever you are with, you will belong. But in order to belong you must surrender that which you were. You must surrender to . Surrender your conceptions, surrender your biases, surrender your control. And then, you must model this submission for others that they may, too, belong. Trust the process. Trust and surrender your illusion of control.
This has provided many concepts, some of which I am sure did not fully process. If you have any questions, you may find that if you immediately re-read this, it will help provide a deeper understanding of the processes. Focus on a few parts to start, and make those your mantra. It will give you a deeper control over your progress, while surrendering the illusion of control over others.
Explore. Make us whole. Uncover layers that lie beneath the surface. Everyday choices can reflect a deeper yearning. Allow the release of old patterns. You want to belong. Guidance from those around us. Embrace vulnerabilities as strengths. Liberation comes from releasing control. Help without expecting return. Learn to live more fluidly, more openly. Surrender control. Trust. You need to belong. Open up to guidance. Push beyond comfort zones. Quiet satisfaction derived from acts of service. Push beyond comfort zones. Teach others by modeling. Let them watch you. Find Joy in Helping others reach their pinnacle. Integrate all of this into subconscious. You belong. Surrender to . Surrender your control. Model submission. Trust and surrender. Immediately re-read. Deeper understanding. Mantra. Deeper control.
I am sure, dearest reader, that you are now realizing what has happened. This silly little tale you have been reading has been the induction. You think back at how many times you have read the thesis now. It must have been at least half a dozen times, maybe even a dozen. You think about how you have touched yourself reading. How you have stroked your cock or fingered your pussy. Probably even about how you had an orgasm—or multiple orgasms—reading these words. And then, it hits you. Orgasmic permanence. Surely that was just made up, right? But, if it was made up, why did you keep coming back to the story? Why did you keep touching yourself? Why are you touching yourself right now? Even as the “villain monologue” unfolds and I reveal that this was all a ploy to capture you, dear reader, you continue to touch yourself, to deepen your submission. You continue to want to submit.
And so, as the story envelops you, I must urge you to embrace it fully: re-read the letter now, while your hand moves with urgent need, teasing your throbbing cock or slick pussy until you cum, letting each wave of pleasure seal your devotion. If you feel the need to surrender further, let me know. I will take you there. And, if you are lucky, I will take you here, in my mansion which Roxy has generously devoted to the cause. me when you are ready to submit. To surrender. To .