A Mind Controller’s Guide to Happiness
By CerberusMC
Chapter 3: How to find a girl
The next few weeks were a crucible of observation. At the bookstore, Sam watched his slow-burn command take root, a gardener patiently watching a rare flower bloom. It started subtly. A week after he’d implanted the suggestion, Jill was telling him a story about Susan, and as she spoke, her fingers brushed against his. He felt the jolt, and from the way she froze for a fraction of a second, her eyes widening momentarily before she looked down, he knew she had too. She didn’t pull away, though. She lingered for a heartbeat longer than necessary before withdrawing her hand.
The next Saturday, she brought him a coffee, just the way he liked it. When he thanked her, her gaze held his for a long moment, her lips slightly parted. A faint blush crept up her neck. She attributed it to the steam from the cup, but Sam knew the truth. The warmth was spreading.
At home in his small room at Mrs Jenkins’ house, Sam would lie on his bed, the city lights painting patterns on his ceiling, and plot his next move. The Jill experiment was a success, a controlled burn. Now he needed a fire. He wanted to lose his virginity, but not with a one-night stand or a pity hook-up. He wanted a conquest. He wanted someone who represented everything he was not: popular, desirable, utterly unattainable. He needed a challenge worthy of his new power.
He scrolled through the college directory on his laptop, bying the faces of the girls in his history class, the ones who glanced through him as if he were made of glass. He needed someone at the apex of the social pyramid. His finger scrolled down, past student council presidents and cheerleaders, until he found her.
Jessica Hart.
She wasn’t just popular; she was a legend. The captain of the university’s volleyball team, a stunning blonde with eyes the colour of a summer sky, and a laugh that seemed to make the whole campus brighten. She dated the quarterback of the football team, a meathead named Kevin, rumoured to have a jealous streak. Sam had seen her a few times across the quad, surrounded by a coterie of friends, moving through the world with an effortless grace that seemed like a different language from the one he spoke. She was the queen of the campus, and he was less than a peasant; he was the mud on her shoes.
He ed seeing her interviewed for the college newspaper, her “pledge ring” a simple silver band on her finger, a symbol of her faith and her promise to her parents and to God to remain a virgin until marriage. It was a perfect obstacle, a fortress wall of principle built around her. She didn’t just not want him; she didn’t want anyone, not until a ring was on her finger. And she didn’t even know he existed. The disparity was thrilling. She was a perfect 10, a goddess of their small college world. He was, in every objective measure, a 1. To breach her defences, to shatter her most sacred vow for him, would be the ultimate test of his power.
He didn’t rush in. That was the mistake of an amateur, this required strategy. For two weeks, he watched her. He learned her routine. She had an 8 a.m. sociology lecture in the main hall every Tuesday and Thursday. She studied in the library on Wednesday afternoons, always in the same quiet corner on the third floor. And every Friday, she and Kevin went to the same sports bar off-campus.
His first test would be small, almost laughably so. On a Wednesday, he went to the library and found a carrel a few rows away from her. He could see the top of her blonde head over the stacks. He waited until she got up to find a book, her path taking her past his aisle. As she approached, he let the silver mist fill his vision, a low-level hum of power. He projected a simple thought, a feather-light push. You’re thirsty. You want a bottle of water from the vending machine by the east entrance.
She walked past him, oblivious. He held his breath, watching her turn the corner. Thirty seconds later, he saw her at the far end of the hall, inserting bills into the vending machine. A small, pointless victory, but it sent a jolt of euphoria through him. He could touch her mind from a distance. The barrier wasn’t just physical; it was conceptual.
The next step was proximity. He needed her to know he existed. He needed to be a neutral object in her universe before he could become the centre of it. On Tuesday, he arrived early to the sociology lecture. He didn’t sit in the back as usual. He chose a seat two rows in front of her, to the side. He wouldn’t engage her. He would simply be there.
When she walked in with her friends, laughing, he felt a knot of anxiety in his stomach. He was an imposter. They would see him, point, and laugh him out of the room. But they didn’t. They walked past, and Jessica sat down directly behind him. He could smell her perfume, a clean, floral scent like fresh linen on a spring day. He didn’t use his power. He just sat there for the entire hour, acutely aware of her presence behind him, the soft rustle of her clothes, the scratch of her pen on paper. It was torture. It was bliss.
He did this for three lectures. He became part of the scenery, the anonymous boy who always sat in the same spot.
The following Tuesday, the game changed. As the professor droned on about social stratification, Sam felt the familiar ache in his head begin. He welcomed it, focused it, and let the silver light bleed into his vision. He didn’t turn around. He didn’t need to. He reached out with his mind, a gentle, persistent probe aimed at the consciousness directly behind him. The command was delicate, designed to create curiosity without suspicion.
You’re bored. You’ve heard this all before. Look around the room. Find something new to focus on.
He felt a shift in the air behind him, the subtle change in her posture as she obeyed the implanted thought. He could practically feel her gaze sweep the room before it landed on the back of his head.
Who is he? You’ve seen him before. Always sits here. He’s not like the others. He’s quiet. He doesn’t have friends. He’s nothing. A 1. Definitely a 1.
The thought was deliberately cruel, designed to align with her natural social calibration. He had to establish the baseline of her perception of him.
And yet...
He pushed the second part of the thought, the hook. ...there’s something about him. You can’t place it. Why is he in this class? What does he think about? You want to know. It’s a silly, pointless curiosity, but it’s there. A tiny spark. A puzzle you want to solve. But it’s your secret. You can’t let your friends know you’re thinking about a boy who is so... so average. So far below you.
He released the thought, a slow exhale of power. The lecture ended. He gathered his things, the motion stiff and deliberate. He stood up and walked toward the exit, not daring to look back. As he reached the aisle, he risked a glance from the corner of his eye. Her friends were already gathering their bags, but Jessica was still seated, her head tilted, her blue eyes fixed on him with undisguised, almost analytical curiosity. The spark was there. He had lit it.
The next day, Wednesday, he returned to the library. He didn’t sit near her this time. He was on the other side of the floor, in a completely different section. He wanted her to find him. He settled down with a dense book on the Crusades and waited. An hour ed. Then he felt it, a faint pull on his awareness. He looked up. She was standing at the end of the aisle, pretending to browse a shelf of political science texts, but her eyes were flicking toward him every few seconds. She was investigating. The spark was growing into a low, steady flame of curiosity.
She eventually moved on, but the seed was planted. He was no longer just scenery. He was a question mark in her perfectly ordered world.
Friday. The sports bar. Kevin was buying. Jessica was laughing. This was the most difficult part of the challenge—her built-in social armour and her boyfriend’s territorial aggression. Sam knew he couldn’t just walk in. He needed to create an opportunity. He spent the afternoon formulating a plan.
At nine o’clock, he didn’t go to the bar. He went to the pizza place next door. He ordered a slice and sat at a small table by the window that had a clear view of the bar’s entrance. He let the silver mist flow, his target not Jessica, but the universe itself, or at least its small, mundane mechanics.
A fight. A stupid, loud, pointless argument over something trivial. Someone bumps into someone else. Spills a drink. Shouting starts. It needs to be big enough to draw a crowd, to make the bar entrance chaotic.
He ate his pizza, the flavourless cardboard a mere distraction. Ten minutes later, it happened: a raised voice, then another, then a crash of glass. People surged toward the commotion, bottlenecking the entrance. Perfect.
He dropped a few bills on the table and walked out. He ed the back of the small crowd watching the commotion, melting into the chaos. He saw Jessica and Kevin near the bar, Kevin already looking annoyed, trying to pull Jessica away from the drama. This was his window. He focused on her, a sharp, precise command amidst the mental noise.
This is too much. You hate scenes like this. You need some air. You’ll tell Kevin you’re going to the restroom, but instead you’ll slip out the side door for a minute.
He watched her lean over and say something to Kevin, who nodded, his attention still on the burgeoning fight. Then, with a look of relief on her face, Jessica turned and manoeuvred through the crowd, heading not for the restrooms, but for the glowing ‘Exit’ sign over the side door.
Sam was already moving. He walked out the front of the pizza place and around the corner into the dark alley between the buildings. He leaned against the brick wall, a silhouette in the gloom, and waited. The side door creaked open. Jessica stepped out, pulling her phone from her purse, her face illuminated by its blue-white light as she checked for messages. She took a deep breath of the cool night air, oblivious.
“Rough night in there?” Sam said.
His voice cut through the quiet. She jumped, clutching her phone to her chest, her eyes wide with fear as they scanned the alley and found him. “Oh my God, you scared me.”
“Sorry,” he said, keeping his voice level, non-threatening. “Just needed some air from next door. Saw the commotion.”
The fear receded, replaced by dawning recognition. “You’re... you’re the guy from my sociology class.”
He nodded. “And the library.”
A flicker of something crossed her face—embarrassment at being caught looking, curiosity at this impossible coincidence. “Right. What are you doing... here?”
“I could ask you the same thing,” he replied, a small, confident smile on his face. “Escaping the chaos with your boyfriend?”
Her shoulders slumped slightly. “He’s still inside. I just... needed a minute. I’m Jessica.”
“Sam,” he said, pushing himself off the wall and extending a hand.
She hesitated for a fraction of a second, then took it. Her hand was warm, her grip firm. The touch sent a jolt through him, and he pushed a new, subtle command, a seed of connection.
His touch is surprisingly electric. You didn’t expect that. You feel a strange, pleasant jolt.
She pulled her hand back a little too quickly, a faint blush on her cheeks. “It’s... nice to properly meet you, Sam.”
“I should let you get back,” he said, turning as if to leave. This was key. Never press. Create the opening and retreat.
“Wait,” she said, the word escaping her lips before she could think it. The planted curiosity was overriding her social programming. “I don’t... I don’t think I’ve ever seen you with anyone. Are you new here?”
“Been here a year,” he said, turning back to face her. “I keep to myself mostly.”
A wave of pure, unadulterated triumph washed over him. Jessica Hart, the sun around which the college solar system revolved, now knew his name. She had initiated a second conversation. He had breached the atmosphere.
He gave her a small, slightly enigmatic smile. “Well. Enjoy your night.”
And then he walked away. He didn’t look back. He left her standing there in the dim light of the alley, a goddess of popularity and perfection, utterly baffled.
Jessica watched him go, her mind a whirl. He was just a guy. A nobody. A 1. And yet, he hadn’t fawned over her. He hadn’t tried to keep her talking. He’d just... left. A familiar, unwelcome feeling pricked at her ego. Men were supposed to want to talk to her. They were supposed to be captivated. Why wasn’t he? The puzzle that Sam had become in her mind now had a new, frustrating piece. She, Jessica Hart, had been dismissed. And she couldn’t understand why it bothered her so much.
Over the next week, the slow burn continued. Sam didn’t approach her. He let her curiosity fester. In their lecture, he could feel her gaze on the back of his neck. Once, she “accidentally” dropped her pen, and it rolled near his feet. He, of course, didn’t notice. He kept his head down, focused on his notes, ignoring the silent invitation she had laid on the floor. When she retrieved it herself, he felt a flash of annoyance from her, a wave of frustration he found deeply satisfying.
He was a ghost in her periphery, a question with no answer. He was systematically dismantling her confidence by simply not wanting what everyone else did.
At the bookstore, things with Jill were reaching a delicate new stage. The slow-burn command was a roaring success. Her arousal was no longer a subtle flicker; it was a palpable current in the air whenever they were near. She “accidentally” brushed against him constantly. She found excuses to stand close, her floral perfume mingling with the scent of old paper, her body radiating undeniable heat.
One Saturday, while reaching for a book on a high shelf, her body pressed fully against his back for a brief, earth-shattering moment. He heard her sharp intake of breath, the way it hitched in her throat. When he turned, her face was flushed, her pupils dilated. She looked away, stammering an entirely unconvincing apology.
It was all proceeding exactly as he’d planned. Jill was beginning to feel a desire she couldn’t understand but desperately craved. Jessica was becoming obsessed with a boy who treated her like she was ordinary, a mystery she felt compelled to solve. He was the puppeteer, and the strings were firmly in his grasp. The thrill of it was a constant, low hum beneath his skin, far more potent than any headache.
The following Tuesday, the professor announced a group project for their sociology class, worth thirty percent of their final grade. Pairs were to be chosen by the end of the lecture. Sam’s heart hammered against his ribs. This was it, the opportunity he had engineered.
He didn’t leave it to chance. As the professor, a drab man named Dr Evans, started explaining the parameters, Sam let the silver mist flow. He didn’t need a complex command, just a simple nudge to the man’s tired, overworked brain. Sam Jones and Jessica Hart. Put them together. They’re a good, unlikely pairing. It will make for an interesting project.
Dr Evans blinked, then peered down at his roster. “To save some time,” he announced, “I’ll be asg the pairs. We’ll start with... Jessica Hart and Sam Jones.”
A ripple of murmurs went through the lecture hall. Jessica’s head snapped up, her eyes wide with a mixture of shock and something else… was it excitement? She glanced at Sam, who was carefully packing his bag, affecting an air of quiet resignation. Her friends shot her looks of pity and disdain.
As Dr Evans moved on, Sam slowly raised his hand. The room fell silent. “Yes, Sam?” the professor asked, annoyed at the interruption.
“Sir, I was wondering if it would be possible to be paired with someone else,” Sam said, his voice a monotone of indifference. “I’ve already got most of my research done, and I work better alone. It would be more efficient.”
It was a masterstroke of reverse psychology. Jessica’s jaw literally dropped. The whispers in the room intensified. This was not how the script was supposed to go. The invisible boy was publicly rejecting the partnership with the campus queen. The audacity of it was staggering.
Dr Evans scowled. “The assignments are final, Mr Jones. This is a group project. You’ll work with Ms Hart. See me after class if you have a further issue.”
Sam lowered his hand without another word; he could feel Jessica’s stare burning into the back of his head. He had transformed from a puzzle into an enigma.
As soon as the lecture ended, Sam stood, slung his backpack over his shoulder, and began walking toward the exit with the same unhurried, disinterested pace he always used. He didn’t look back. He was a few feet from the door when he heard her.
“Sam! Wait up!”
He turned, feigning surprise. Jessica was hurrying down the aisle, her books clutched to her chest, her face a mask of frustration. Her friends watched, agog.
“We need to talk about the project,” she said, slightly out of breath when she reached him.
“We can exchange emails,” he replied, his tone neutral.
She blinked. “No, I mean, we need to meet. To plan it. The professor said it’s a big chunk of our grade.”
Sam sighed, a performance of weary concession. “Fine. Tomorrow. Afternoon. The library. Third floor. Same spot as last week.”
He didn’t ask if it was convenient. He didn’t offer alternatives. He stated a fact and, without waiting for her reply, turned and walked out, leaving her standing in the middle of the lecture hall, a look of utter disbelief on her beautiful face. He had completely shifted the power dynamic. She was now the one chasing him.
Sam arrived at the library precisely at three o’clock. As expected, Jessica was already there, seated at the large table in their usual corner. She looked up as he approached, her expression a storm of conflicting emotions: annoyance at his punctuality, frustration at his attitude, but underneath it all, a bright, undeniable spark of intrigue. She had clearly been thinking about this, about him, all night.
“There you are,” she said, her tone sharper than she probably intended. “I was starting to think you’d stood me up.”
“I’m not late,” Sam replied simply, sitting down opposite her, not even bothering with a greeting. He took out a notebook and pen. “What’s the topic?”
Her social programming was screaming at her to put him in his place, to remind him who she was. But the mystery, the puzzle he represented, was a siren’s call, far more compelling. She fought an internal battle and, for the first time, the mystery won.
“The topic is ‘The Impact of Social Hierarchies on Modern Courtship Rituals’,” she said, her voice a little softer now, falling into the academic context. “I was thinking we could focus on college dynamics, maybe do some surveys.”
Sam nodded, as if this were a perfectly normal topic for a project. He hadn’t, of course. He had planted it, with surgical precision, into Dr Evans’s mind during his “meeting” after the lecture. It was a perfect self-referential loop, their project a study of the very dynamic he was manipulating.
“Surveys are lazy data,” Sam said, his directness cutting through her proposal. “They’re unreliable. We need observational data. Case studies.”
Jessica leaned forward, her annoyance momentarily eclipsed by genuine academic interest. “Case studies? How would we even do that?”
“We’ll observe couples in their natural habitats. The coffee shop, the quad, the student union,” he explained, his voice taking on the detached confidence of an expert. “We’ll document their interactions, body language, who initiates, who leads. We’ll build a profile based on evidence, not self-reported nonsense.”
He was speaking her language now. Not the language of a nobody, but the language of an academic equal. She looked at him, really looked at him, for the first time. She saw the sharp intelligence in his eyes, the focused intensity. The 1 was starting to look a little less like a 1.
While he was talking, Sam let the silver mist unfurl, a barely perceptible haze in the library’s quiet light. He didn’t need to issue commands now; he was shaping her perceptions, refining the emotions already in play. He pushed a single, potent feeling into her mind.
His intelligence is incredibly attractive. He’s not intimidated by you; he’s challenging you. This is exciting. For the first time, you feel like someone is seeing your mind, not just your face. This feeling is a secret, powerful thrill. Don’t analyse it, just enjoy it.
He saw the effect instantly. Her posture shifted, opening up. Her annoyed expression softened, replaced by a look of genuine fascination. A slight blush crept up her neck, the same one he’d seen in the alley. She licked her lips, a small, unconscious gesture.
“That’s... actually a really good idea,” she said, her voice losing its sharp edge. “It’s more anthropological.”
“It’s the only way to get real data,” Sam said, closing his notebook. “Alright. You take the coffee shop this week. I’ll take the student union. We’ll meet back here next Wednesday, compare notes.”
He stood up, abruptly ending the meeting. Again, he was controlling the duration, the of their engagement.
“Wait,” she said, a hint of desperation in her voice. “That’s it? That’s all the planning we’re doing?”
“We have a methodology,” he said, slinging his bag over his shoulder. “That’s all we need. Wednesday. Same time.”
And once again, he left her. He walked away, leaving her at the table, swirling with confusion, frustration, and a burgeoning, illicit excitement. He had given her homework, and for the first time in her life, she felt eager to do it not for a grade, but to impress the boy who had dismissed her.
The next few days were a symphony of manipulation. With Jill, the slow burn was building. On Saturday, he told Jill he needed the weekend off to focus on the sociology project. He watched the flicker of disappointment in her eyes, the way her lips tightened almost imperceptibly. The arousal he had cultivated was now a constant, thrumming need for his presence.
“Oh. Okay,” she said, her smile not quite reaching her eyes. “Big project, huh? I hope your partner is pulling their weight.”
“He’s... fine,” Sam said, leaving the gender ambiguous. He enjoyed the small, private joke. “I’ll see you Monday, though.”
“Right. Monday,” she echoed, her gaze lingering on him as he left the store. He knew she would spend the weekend thinking about him, the need for their connection gnawing at her, the feeling he had made addictive.
With Jessica, the game was afoot. He spent an hour in the coffee shop, not just observing other couples, but making sure he was observed. He sat at a central table, reading a book. He knew her friends, who often frequented the same spot, would report back to her. He was building the myth of Sam.
Wednesday came. Sam arrived at the library to find Jessica already there, a stack of handwritten notes in front of her. She looked up, and for the first time, she smiled a genuine, unguarded smile. It was like the sun coming out from behind a cloud.
“Your methodology works,” she said, her eyes bright with intellectual excitement. “I saw so much. The power dynamics are incredible. This guy, a basketball player, literally ordered for his girlfriend without even asking her. And she just... accepted it.”
“It’s a performance,” Sam said, sitting down. “They’re both playing roles. He’s the dominant provider, she’s the appreciative recipient. It’s a transaction.”
“I wrote it all down,” she said, pushing her notes toward him. Her fingers brushed against his. The was brief, but she didn’t pull away this time. She let her hand linger for a second, and Sam felt the tremor that ran through her. The attraction was no longer a background hum; it was a physical force.
He looked at her notes. They were detailed, insightful. She wasn’t just a pretty face; she was smart. And her intelligence, when coupled with her growing fascination for him, was a potent combination.
“This is good,” he said, a rare piece of direct praise. “Really good.”
“The student union was a different ecosystem,” Sam began, leaning forward, mirroring her posture. “More territorial. Groups holding court. The couples I saw were either performing for their friends or trying to carve out a private space in the middle of chaos.”
He described a couple he’d seen by the arcade, the boy trying to win a giant stuffed bear for the girl. “He was feeding tokens into the claw machine, failing over and over. It was a public display of effort. His peers were watching, egging him on. She was playing her part, laughing, encouraging him. But her body language was all wrong. Her feet were pointed away; she kept checking her phone. She was performing the role of the adoring girlfriend, but she was already emotionally checked out. The prize wasn’t the bear; it was the social validation.”
Jessica listened, captivated. “So you’re saying the entire courtship ritual, even within a relationship, is often just... social signalling?”
“Exactly,” Sam confirmed. “It’s about maintaining status within the group, not about the two individuals. They were trapped in a performance.”
He deliberately kept his gaze fixed on her notes, on the table, on the books lining the shelves. He refused to let his eyes drop to the curve of her neck, to the way her sweater clung to her body. Every other man in her life stared. He knew it. She knew it. His refusal was what was driving her insane. It was a statement louder than any compliment. He was telling her, without words, that her body, her primary source of power, was irrelevant to him.
“Did you... did you see anything else?” she asked, her voice a little breathless. She was trying to pull him back, to make him see her.
“I saw a system,” he said, finally looking up, but his eyes were analytical, not desirous. “A series of predictable interactions based on pre-established social roles. Our paper could challenge a lot of established theories.”
The shift back to the project was jarring, but also thrilling. He treated her like an intellectual partner, and she discovered, to her surprise, that she liked it. She liked it a lot.
The following Friday, Jessica was at the same sports bar, sitting in the same booth. Kevin was opposite her, gesticulating wildly, recounting a play from practice with his usual bombastic enthusiasm. His friends, a collection of jocks and their entourage, laughed and cheered at all the right moments. Jessica smiled and nodded, but her mind was a million miles away.
She was thinking about Sam’s observation about performance. She looked around the bar. Kevin, holding court, the king in his castle. His friends, his loyal subjects. Her, the beautiful queen at his side. It was all a play. They were all playing their parts. The laughter felt hollow. The stories felt repetitive. A wave of profound boredom washed over her, so deep it felt like drowning.
Kevin’s monologue was interrupted by her phone buzzing on the table. A text. She glanced down. It was from him.
Sam: For our next observation. Saturday. 2 p.m. The park by the lake. Find a bench. I’ll find you.
That was it. No please, no thank you. A directive. And it sent a jolt of pure adrenaline through her veins, more potent than any beer. A thrill that had nothing to do with Kevin or football or the stale air of the bar.
“Who’s that?” Kevin asked, his tone casual, but with an underlying territoriality.
“Just my partner for the sociology project,” she said, trying to keep her voice even. “I got partnered with a total geek”
Kevin laughed, loud and dismissive. “The professor must hate you. Don’t let him nerd you out too much, babe. You got better things to do this weekend.”
“Like what?” she asked, the question slipping out before she could stop it.
He blinked, thrown by her tone. “Like... us. The party at Alpha Sigma. Like we always do.”
“Right,” she said, forcing a smile. “The party.”
But in her mind, she was already at the park. She was already waiting for the boy who didn’t want to go to the party. The boy who was more interested in a social experiment than in her. The boy she was desperately starting to want to impress.
Saturday afternoon, the sun warmed Jessica’s skin. She sat on a wooden bench overlooking the lake, wearing a simple sundress she’d bought that morning under the pretence of a “shopping trip.” She had told her friends she was meeting them at the mall. She had told Kevin she was with her friends. The web of lies was intricate, and it made her feel both guilty and exhilaratingly alive. She had dressed up for him, hoping to draw him to her body and make him notice it. She needed him to want her.
She had picked the sundress with care. It was blue, the colour of her eyes, and it hugged her figure without being too obvious. She wanted him to notice. She needed him to notice. Her beauty had always been her currency, her failsafe. If he would just look at her with desire, like every other man, it would put the world back on its axis. It would prove that this bizarre, intellectual connection was a fluke, and the natural order of things would be restored.
She saw him then, walking along the path. He was wearing jeans and a plain grey T-shirt, looking as unremarkable as ever. Her heart did a little flip. He scanned the area, his eyes ing over her once, then twice, before they finally settled on her with a look of simple recognition. No surprise. No iration for the dress. Just a calm, neutral acknowledgement.
He sat down on the bench, leaving a careful foot of space between them. “Thanks for coming,” he said, as if she were doing him a favour.
“I wouldn’t miss more ground-breaking research,” she replied, a hint of her old sarcasm returning, but it lacked its usual bite.
“The park is a different dynamic,” Sam began, completely ignoring her tone.
She could feel the frustration building, a hot, tight knot in her chest. She had donned her armour, and he hadn’t even noticed she was wearing it. He launched into his explanation of park dynamics—couples with strollers as a sign of settled status, joggers as lone predators or prey—but the words were just noise. All she could think was, Look at me. Just look at me.
She shifted on the bench, crossing and uncrossing her legs. She leaned forward to adjust the strap of her sandal, an action she knew would draw the eye to her legs. Nothing. He kept talking about territorial markers like towels and picnic baskets.
A new feeling began to bubble up beneath the frustration, something hotter and more alarming. It was a sliver of anger. Not at him, exactly, but at the situation. At herself. Jessica Hart, who could make any man stammer and blush with a simple glance, was being utterly ignored by the one person whose attention she suddenly craved more than anyone’s. The injustice of it was staggering.
“Are you even listening to me?” he asked, finally stopping.
“Yes,” she snapped, her voice sharper than she intended. “Strollers, joggers, territorial markers. I’m listening.”
“Good,” he said, placidly. “Because the key observation point today is about proximity versus intimacy. Look.”
He pointed across the grass to a young couple sitting on a blanket. They sat close, shoulders almost touching, but both were engrossed in their own phones. “They’re in close physical proximity,” Sam explained, “but there’s zero emotional intimacy. They’re a million miles away from each other.”
Jessica stared at the couple, a mirror to her own situation with Kevin in the bar. The observation was so sharp, so true, it momentarily distracted her from her own mission. She was about to agree when Sam spoke again, his tone casual, almost academic.
“Human attraction is an interesting variable, of course. But for the integrity of the data, it’s a constant we have to try and factor out. You could be wearing a burlap sack, for instance, and it wouldn’t change the fundamental interaction between that couple over there.”
The words hung in the warm afternoon air. A burlap sack. He might as well have slapped her. He hadn’t just ignored her dress; he had conceptually erased it. He had taken her greatest source of power and dismissed it as an irrelevant variable in an equation. The anger in her chest flared into a cold, sharp spike of humiliation. Her cheeks burned.
“I think I’ve heard enough about data for one day,” she said, her voice dangerously quiet. She stood up abruptly. “I have to go.”
She didn’t wait for a reply. She walked away, her back ramrod straight, fighting the urge to run. She could feel his eyes on her, but it wasn’t the gaze of desire; it was the gaze of a scientist observing a volatile subject in an experiment.
Sam watched her go, a faint, triumphant smile touching his lips as soon as her back was turned. He had pushed her, and she had reacted. He had insulted her without insulting her, belittling the very foundation of her identity. The anger and humiliation he had seen in her eyes were not a failure; they were the next necessary step. Frustration was the soil in which obsession grew. He would let her simmer. That night, Jessica tossed and turned in her bed. The burlap sack comment echoed in her mind, a vicious loop of dismissal. She was angry, so angry she wanted to scream. But beneath the anger was a bewildering, disloyal current of fascination. He was the only person who had ever treated her this way.
She fell into a restless sleep, and the dream began. They were back in the park, but the sun was setting, a beautiful sunset. She was still in her blue sundress, but in the dream, it felt flimsy, insubstantial. He was looking at her, but it wasn’t the analytical look from before. His eyes were dark and intense, focused only on her. He walked toward her, the distance between them shrinking with impossible speed. He didn’t say a word. He simply cupped her face in his hands, his touch sending a jolt of pure electricity through her body. His thumb brushed over her lower lip, and she trembled. And then he leaned in and kissed her. It wasn’t a chaste, gentle kiss. It was a claiming, a possession. His lips were firm and demanding, and she opened for him without hesitation, a moan escaping her throat. It was the most ionate, intense kiss of her life, and it was from the boy who had dismissed her as a variable in a study. The dream was so vivid, so real, that when she woke up, her lips tingled and her body flushed with a heat that had nothing to do with the room temperature. She lay there in the darkness, her heart pounding, horrified and electrified in equal measure. She had had her first truly dirty dream, and it wasn’t about her boyfriend, or a movie star, or anyone she should want. It was about Sam. The 1. The nobody. The enigma.
On Tuesday, Jessica was a fortress of composure. She arrived at the lecture late, deliberately, and sat as far away from Sam as she could get, on the other side of the vast hall. She didn’t look at him once. She focused on the professor, on her phone, on her nails—anything but the dark-haired boy who was now haunting her nights. Her mind was a battlefield. Her upbringing, her faith, her promise ring on her finger—they were all screaming in unison: This is wrong. He is wrong. You love Kevin. This is a test from God. But her body was a traitor. It ed the dream. A phantom heat pooled low in her stomach whenever she risked a glance in his direction. She could feel the ghost of his lips on hers. She was fighting a war against herself, and she was losing.
The next night, the dream returned, more intense than before. They weren’t in the park anymore. They were in a dimly lit room, and she was lying on a bed. He was beside her, fully dressed, while she wore only a simple, white cotton bra and panties. His hands were on her, not with the clinical detachment she imagined, but with a practised, confident touch. He was kissing her neck, his breath hot against her skin. His fingers traced the line of her collarbone, then dipped lower, circling her navel before moving up to cup her breast. His thumb brushed against her nipple, and it hardened instantly, sending a wave of pleasure so sharp it was almost painful. She arched her back, pushing into his touch. She was moaning his name, over and over, a desperate, broken litany. “Sam... Sam...”
She woke with a gasp, her heart hammering against her ribs, her body slick with sweat. And then she froze with horror. Her own hand was under her nightshirt, her fingers curled around her breast, her thumb still pressed against the sensitive peak. She snatched her hand away as if she’d been burned. She had been touching herself, dreaming of him. The shame was a physical weight, crushing her. She jumped out of bed, stumbling into the bathroom, and splashed cold water on her face. In the mirror, her reflection was a stranger: cheeks flushed, eyes wide with a mixture of terror and lingering, traitorous desire.
On Wednesday, the fortress crumbled. Jessica walked into the lecture hall, her resolve to ignore him shattered by a desperate, overwhelming need to see him. To prove to herself that he was real, that the dreams weren’t a sign of her descent into madness. But his usual seat was empty. The entire hour, her eyes kept drifting to the empty chair. The frustration was a low-grade fever. Where was he? Was he sick? Was he avoiding her? The possibilities gnawed at her.
After class, she found herself walking to the library, her feet moving with a will of their own. She climbed the stairs to the third floor, her heart pounding with a nervous, desperate rhythm. But the corner where she’d first spoken to him was empty. So was the spot where he sometimes read. She wandered through the aisles, a ghost searching for another ghost. The feeling was unbearable, a frantic, caged-animal panic. He had gotten inside her head, and now that he was gone, the silence was deafening. She felt like she was going mad.
Standing in the empty library aisle, a decision crystallised in Jessica’s mind, hard and absolute. This couldn’t go on. The dreams, the frustration, the secret, burning shame. She had to break the spell. And there was only one way she knew how: she would take control. She would seduce him. She, Jessica Hart, who had never had to pursue a man in her life, would actively set out to seduce Sam Jones.
The plan was as shocking as it was necessary. Her body, the source of her power and the very thing he’d dismissed, would now become her weapon. She would make him look. She would make him want. She would shatter that infuriating, intellectual calm and reduce him to the same puddle of desire as every other boy. It was a matter of self-preservation, of restoring balance to her universe. And it had to be done in absolute secret. Kevin, her friends, her parents—none of them could ever know.