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The Night of the first FACT

The house was quiet for once. Our daughter was spending the night at a friend’s, Janet had brought home dinner, and by nine there was nobody calling from upstairs, nobody needing a ride, nobody asking where we’d put something that was sitting directly in front of them. Just me and my wife on the couch with some crime show playing low enough that neither of us had to pretend we were following it.

Janet sat beside me with her legs tucked underneath her, blonde hair pulled back, wearing an old gray shirt and shorts. She was forty-five and still beautiful. Not beautiful for forty-five. Beautiful. She’d aged, obviously. A few lines around her eyes, softer around the middle than when we met, breasts sitting lower after twenty years, a pregnancy, and gravity. Normal things. None of it made her unattractive. Other men still noticed her. I noticed them noticing her. I understood why.

There had been a time when I couldn’t believe she’d chosen me. We’d been happy too. Really happy. House, daughter, steady careers, vacations when schedules cooperated. Janet was funny, smart, dependable, a good mother. We’d built exactly the kind of normal life I’d always assumed I wanted.

Then I’d met Evan Peters.

I never liked thinking about it that plainly because once I did there wasn’t much room left for excuses. The first time I’d seen him, something in me had shifted. He’d been younger then, but already completely Evan. Athletic, cocky, too sure of himself for somebody whose life clearly hadn’t gone according to plan. He could make a routine conversation difficult just because he enjoyed getting under my skin.

And I’d fallen for him. Not gradually either. For years I’d tried finding another word because love felt ridiculous. Crush. Attraction. Fixation. Midlife bullshit. None of them quite covered it. I loved Evan. Secretly, stupidly, hopelessly.

I wasn’t interested in men. Never had been. Fifty years had given me plenty of opportunities to figure that out. Nothing. Then Evan walked into my life and apparently every rule I’d lived by came with one exception.

Him.

At first I’d assumed it would . Instead I started noticing what time he worked, which days he was off, which shirts I liked on him. I found reasons to give him extra shifts, stayed longer than necessary when we had drinks after work, let schedule texts turn into conversations long after there was anything left to say about schedules. Whenever he mentioned some woman he’d been with, I’d get irritated and spend the rest of the day pretending I wasn’t.

I knew how pathetic it sounded. I also loved every second I got with him. Seeing Evan made my day better. Hearing him give me shit made me smile when I wasn’t supposed to. Half the reason he got away with as much as he did was because even while he was driving me fucking crazy, I wanted him there.

Janet had never done anything wrong. That was what made everything harder. I had a wife. We had a daughter. We had twenty-one years of marriage and a life we’d built together. You didn’t throw all that away because you’d fallen in love with somebody you had no business loving. Especially when that somebody was a male employee who probably had no idea how often you thought about him.

So I stayed. That was what adults did… at least that was what I told myself.

Janet caught me looking at her. “What?”

“Nothing.”

She smiled. “You’ve been staring.”

“I can look at my wife.”

“Usually when you look that long, you want something.”

That used to be true.

She put her phone aside and shifted closer. “Empty house.”

“I noticed.”

“Our daughter won’t be home until tomorrow.”

“I noticed that too.”

Janet rested a hand on my thigh. After twenty-one years there wasn’t much reason for subtlety. I kissed her, she kissed me back, and I tried. I really did.

Everything about Janet was familiar. Her shampoo. The warmth of her body. The way she leaned into me. I knew what she liked and how she’d react before I even did anything. There was comfort in that. History. But there wasn’t much desire anymore. That had been disappearing for years.

We still had sex. Once a month, maybe. Sometimes less. Enough that I could tell myself we had a normal middle-aged marriage and everybody exaggerated how often married people actually did it anyway. Except my sex drive wasn’t the problem. Janet knew that too.

She kissed me harder and moved closer, clearly wanting this more than I did. When my body still barely responded, she didn’t immediately give up. If anything, she became more determined. She touched me, kissed along my neck, tried everything she knew usually worked. Eventually she moved between my legs and tried to coax a response more directly.

That was when the guilt really started. My wife wanted me. She was horny, frustrated, and still willing to put in the effort after years of this. She shouldn’t have needed to work this hard to get her own husband interested.

I looked down at her and knew objectively how lucky I was. Then I thought about Evan. four. That asshole grin. The shirt he’d been wearing earlier. The one that hugged his chest so tight. All hard muscle. He clearly still went to the gym as if he was starting the game next Sunday. My body responded.

Janet noticed and took it as encouragement.

I knew better.

For a moment I let myself think about Evan while my wife tried to please me. The reaction strengthened, and shame crawled up my neck because I knew exactly why. Then I forced Evan out of my head. The response faded with him.

Janet finally stopped. She sat back and looked at me. Not angry. Mostly frustrated, with just enough hurt underneath it that I wished she’d yell instead.

“Bill.”

“I know.”

“I really don’t know what else I’m supposed to do.”

“It’s not you.”

She gave me a tired look. “You always say that.”

Because it was true, and completely false. She sat beside me again and pulled her shirt straight. “I don’t care that you touch yourself. I really don’t. But we do this maybe once a month, and you can lock yourself in the bathroom every day. Sometimes more than once.”

I looked away. She’d known for years. Not what I was looking at. Just what I was doing. Locked doors. Long showers. Phone disappearing with me. There were only so many explanations. Janet assumed porn. I’d let her.

“I just don’t understand why that’s easy and this isn’t,” she said. “I shouldn’t feel jealous of your phone.” Janet sighed and stood. “I’m going upstairs.”

“Jan.”

“I’m not trying to fight with you.” She leaned down and kissed me anyway. That was the worst part. She was still trying. I waited until she disappeared upstairs, then sat there another minute pretending I wasn’t waiting. Then I went to the downstairs bathroom and I locked the door.

My phone was already in my hand.

I had pictures of Evan saved. Nothing dirty. That wasn’t necessary. Christmas party. Employee barbecue. One from his social media where he was outside in a fitted shirt with sunglasses pushed into his hair, smiling at whoever had taken the picture.

I opened it and felt the familiar rush. There was shame in what I was doing, but never because I hated wanting Evan. I loved wanting him. That was the problem.

I loved his face. Loved that stupid smile. Loved ing him standing in front of me earlier that day, blushing after I’d complimented his shirt. Loved ing that I’d actually asked what he was doing after work and the slow grin he’d given me when he realized what I was asking.

The physical response came easily now. No hesitation. No effort. The same desire that had barely existed with Janet was suddenly overwhelming because this wasn’t anonymous porn to me.

It was Evan. The man I loved. A knock came at the door.

“Bill?”

Janet. I stayed quiet.

“Seriously? We just tried.”

“I know.”

There was a pause. When she spoke again, the frustration was gone. She just sounded tired. “You don’t have to do that in there.”

I stared at the phone. “What? Take a shit?”

Another pause. “If you still need something, come upstairs. I can take care of you.”

I closed my eyes. She sounded embarrassed even offering.

“I mean it,” she continued. “I want to. I just... I’d rather it be me sometimes.”

That hurt. Not because I didn’t care about her, but because I did. Because my wife was standing outside a locked bathroom begging me to let her in. “I’m okay, Jan.”

She didn’t answer immediately. Then: “Okay.”

Her footsteps moved away. I should have opened the door. That would’ve been the decent thing. Go upstairs. Let Janet try again. Hold her. Give her something after she’d spent years accepting less intimacy than she wanted because I kept insisting everything was fine.

Instead I imagined Evan in front of me, the way his thighs would feel under my palms if I pulled him closer. I pictured kneeling between them, the tile cold against my knees, the heat of his skin when I finally touched him. The weight of him in my mouth. How he’d taste, how he’d groan when I took him deeper. How his fingers would tangle in my hair, not gentle. How he’d say my name like it was the only thing keeping him from breaking.

The pleasure returned immediately.

When it was over, I leaned against the sink and stared at his picture until my breathing settled. For a few seconds there was nothing but that warm feeling I always got afterward, the ridiculous happiness of letting myself have him in the only way I actually could.

Then I ed Janet upstairs. That was the real problem. I wasn’t ashamed because I didn’t enjoy this. I was ashamed because I enjoyed it so fucking much.

Janet was family. I cared about her deeply. We’d spent half our lives together, raised a daughter, built a home. If somebody hurt her, I’d still bury them.

But somewhere along the way, staying married to Janet had become something I did because it was the right thing to do. Loving Evan was something I didn’t have to make myself do at all.

Today had been a good day because he’d been there. I’d seen him. Argued with him. Watched him smile. Caught myself staring. Made an idiot of myself asking what he was doing after work.

Then I’d come home and done what I’d been doing for years. Tried to be Janet’s husband. I failed miserably. Locked a door. Thought about Evan. I’d gotten good at living that way.

Work made it easier. Five days a week I got to see him, hear his voice, have him irritate me, tell myself whatever this thing was could stay exactly where it belonged.

Tomorrow he’d be at work again. Probably late. I’d yell. He’d say something smart back. I’d tell him to get his ass moving. And I’d get another day with him. For years, that had been enough.

2nd Day — Morning

I slept badly. Janet didn’t say much when I came upstairs. She was already in bed with her back toward me, reading on her phone. I kissed her shoulder, she said goodnight, and neither of us mentioned the bathroom. By morning she was already dressed for work, standing in the kitchen with damp blonde hair and a coffee in one hand while answering emails with the other. Last night’s takeout containers were still on the counter, the dishwasher needed emptying, a basket of clean laundry sat untouched on the table, and our daughter’s school stuff was spread across two chairs. Normal morning. It pissed me off.

I started throwing away containers. Janet glanced up and told me I didn’t have to do that right now. “Apparently I do.” She looked at me for a second before saying she’d clean it tonight. I knew immediately I’d sounded like an asshole. Janet had worked yesterday. So had I. We had both been tired. Nobody cleaning the kitchen before bed had happened hundreds of times over twenty-one years and somehow the house had survived. So why did it suddenly bother me?

I looked around again. Dirty kitchen. Laundry. Backpack on the floor. Janet answering work emails before she’d even finished her coffee. Something about it felt wrong. Not messy. Wrong. A wife shouldn’t be so busy with everything outside the house that the house became an afterthought. The thought came so naturally that it took me a second to realize I’d never really believed that before. Janet had always worked. I liked that she worked. She was good at what she did. I’d bragged about her career plenty of times. But what was the point of both of us killing ourselves at work if nobody was actually taking care of anything here?

Dinner came out of bags half the week. Laundry piled up. Always a mini-argument as to who can get our daughter to school on time. We were constantly figuring out who could drive where and who had time to buy groceries. Maybe we’d gotten too comfortable pretending everything had to be split exactly down the middle. Maybe a family worked better when somebody actually took responsibility for the home. And if I was being honest, I didn’t think that somebody should be me. I worked. I provided. I dealt with employees, customers, schedules, budgets, district management, and people losing their minds because a coupon expired three months ago. I wanted to come home to dinner handled, a clean kitchen, clothes where they belonged, and a wife who wasn’t answering work emails at seven in the morning because her job didn’t consume the same part of her life mine did.

The more I thought about it, the more reasonable it sounded. Was it really so much to want a woman who took pride in keeping a home? Who wanted to raise her kid instead of scheduling parenting around conference calls? Who liked cooking for her husband? Who thought taking care of him was something worth doing instead of another chore on a list? Janet looked up from her phone and asked what I was staring at. I said nothing. She went back to typing, which irritated me too. Always her phone.

Then I looked down at mine. I’d checked it three times since waking up. Nothing from Evan. The hypocrisy should have bothered me more than it did. Evan worked at ten. I knew without checking the schedule. Just thinking about seeing him made some of the irritation drain out of me.

That should have told me something. Instead I looked at Janet again. She was beautiful. Still beautiful. I’d never deny that. But beauty wasn’t everything. Maybe that was another thing I’d gotten wrong when I was younger. I’d married a gorgeous woman and thought that was enough. Maybe what mattered more was what kind of wife a woman actually wanted to be. Janet was a good person and a good mother, but was she really a good wife? The question felt ugly. I asked it anyway.

Our daughter came downstairs in yesterday’s clothes, having apparently decided before sunrise that the sleepover was over. She asked if either of us had seen her charger. Janet told her to check her bag again, and she disappeared upstairs. Sixteen years old and Janet still had to tell her where everything was. Maybe that was part of it too. Janet had always been proud of raising an independent daughter. We’d both said that was important. But shouldn’t her mother be more involved? Breakfast. Clothes. School. Keeping track of what she needed. That was what mothers did. At least it used to be. Now everybody acted like saying that was offensive.

Janet checked the time and swore. She had to leave in ten minutes. I reminded her our daughter needed a ride. “I know.” I said I had work. “So do I.” Something about that answer annoyed me instantly. Of course she did. There was always work. Janet finally said she’d take her and tell the office she’d be late. I should have appreciated that. Instead I found myself thinking maybe she shouldn’t have a job where taking her own daughter to school was an inconvenience.

Janet gathered her bag and keys, then came over to kiss me goodbye. I turned my head and her lips landed on my cheek. I hadn’t planned it, but after last night the hurt on her face was immediate. I told her I had a lot on my mind. “Clearly.” She stepped away and went upstairs to get our daughter.

I watched her go and felt guilty for about ten seconds. Then my eyes went back to the kitchen. She could have cleaned this before work. The thought settled in my head far more comfortably than it should have. Maybe I’d spent years convincing myself everything between us was fine because itting otherwise would mean asking harder questions. Maybe the problem wasn’t that I wanted Evan. Maybe the problem was that Janet had stopped being the kind of woman a man came home wanting.

That explanation felt better. Cleaner. It made things her fault.

I knew, somewhere underneath all of it, that it was bullshit. Janet had always been like this. Independent. Career-driven. Busy. We’d built our marriage around both of us working and both of us raising our daughter. I had loved that about her once. At least I thought I had. But Evan had been in my life for years now, and somewhere along the way the things I wanted had changed. I just wasn’t ready to it what had changed them.

I checked the clock. Eight sixteen. Less than two hours until Evan’s shift.

For the first time that morning, I smiled.

2nd Day — Work

Evan was scheduled at 10. At 10:05, I noticed he wasn’t there. At 10:15, I checked the schedule even though I’d written the damn thing myself. By 10:30 I knew he wasn’t coming. Being late wasn’t unusual for Evan. That was one of the things everybody knew I let him get away with. Ten minutes late became a reminder instead of a write-up. If he needed to leave early, somehow I usually found coverage. If the end of his shift came and he hadn’t finished stocking something, I’d tell another employee to wrap it up rather than make Evan stay. I’d spent years telling myself there was always a reason. He’d stayed late last week. Business was slow. I had enough people. It wasn’t worth making an issue out of twenty minutes.

The staff wasn’t stupid. They knew he was my favorite. Nobody knew why, but they knew. Tracy had complained more than once that Evan could get away with things she’d be written up for. Miguel had joked that if he ever wanted a Saturday off, apparently he needed to change his name to Peters. I always had some managerial explanation ready. Evan was experienced. Evan was good with customers. Evan could cover different departments. Evan had been there long enough that I’d earned some flexibility with him. All of those things were true. None of them were the real reason. The real reason was that saying no to Evan was difficult.

Even when I was correcting him, I was rarely as angry as I sounded. I’d call him into the office and tell him, “You were scheduled at 9. I need you here at 9.” He’d give me whatever explanation he had, I’d tell him it couldn’t keep happening, and then I’d let him get back to work. With another employee there might have been documentation. With Evan there was usually a conversation. I liked having conversations with him. That was the embarrassing truth underneath years of management decisions.

At 11, I walked past the front end and automatically looked toward the Evan usually worked when we needed him up there. Tracy was covering it. She was faster than Evan and more reliable, so there was no operational problem. The store was running exactly as it should. I still wanted him there.

I checked my phone during lunch. Nothing. That wasn’t unusual either. Evan wasn’t obligated to text me socially, and if he was calling out he should have ed the store, not me personally. I checked anyway. His name sat near the top of my messages, years of conversations underneath it. Most started with something legitimate. Can you come in at noon instead of ten? You left your jacket in the office. Are you available Saturday? Need you to close tomorrow. Sometimes the conversation ended there. Sometimes it drifted into a complaint about a customer, something stupid that happened during the shift, Evan making fun of one of my management emails, me telling him he was an asshole. Nothing I’d have been embarrassed for Janet to read individually. Taken together, maybe I would’ve been.

I knew far too much about Evan for a manager who supposedly found him irritating. I knew what coffee he bought on the way to work. I knew which football teams could ruin his mood. I knew when he’d had a bad night before he said anything because he got quieter instead of louder. I knew which days he tended to ask to leave early and which excuses meant he genuinely needed something versus simply wanting to go home. I’d paid attention. Of course I had. I loved him.

I put my phone away and went back to work. The strange thing was that nothing else about my day suffered. I handled the schedule, approved a return one of the supervisors didn’t want to deal with, answered an email from district, helped sort out a delivery problem, and spent twenty minutes explaining to a customer why we couldn’t honor a coupon for an item we didn’t sell anymore. Nobody got snapped at. Nobody deserved to have my personal bullshit dumped on them. But underneath all of it, I kept track of Evan’s absence. Every time I ed the entrance, I noticed he hadn’t walked through it.

Around 2, I finally called him. It rang until voicemail. I didn’t leave one. Instead I sent a text: Evan, you were scheduled at 10 today and didn’t call out. Let me know you’re okay and whether you’ll be in tomorrow. I read it twice before sending. That was how I should talk to an employee. Clear. Professional. No bullshit. I sent it and immediately hated how formal it sounded. I almost followed it with Everything alright? but stopped myself. There was a line somewhere. I was still his manager. Whatever I felt about him didn’t change that. At least that was what I told myself.

A couple hours later Tracy came into the office with a schedule question. While I was checking it, she glanced at the empty slot beside Evan’s name. “Peters no-showed?” I told her apparently so, and she gave a small laugh. “Guess even Evan has limits.” When I asked what she meant, she hesitated before saying, “You cut him a lot more slack than the rest of us.” There wasn’t any accusation in it. Just something everyone apparently considered obvious. I pointed out that Evan had been there a long time. “So what? So have I.” Fair assessment. “You also don’t show up twenty minutes late twice a week.” “Exactly my point.” I couldn’t argue with that. I looked back at the schedule. “If you start doing it, I’ll make sure to be equally disappointed in you.” She laughed and left.

By the end of the shift Evan still hadn’t answered. That was when irritation started giving way to something less comfortable. Maybe he’d gotten sick. Maybe his car had broken down. Maybe something had actually happened. I opened our messages again. Nothing. I considered calling a second time, then stopped myself. One call. One text. That was enough for an employee who’d missed a shift. For someone I loved, it didn’t feel like nearly enough.

That distinction sat badly with me. Work had always made Evan easy to keep in my life. I never had to ask myself whether I was allowed to call him because there was always a schedule, a shift, something unfinished, some legitimate reason to talk. I could see him five days a week and pretend that was just what happened when you managed somebody. Apparently I’d relied on that more than I realized.

I checked tomorrow’s schedule before leaving. Evan was on it. Ten o’clock. Seeing his name there relaxed something in me. He’d come in tomorrow. I’d ask what happened. I’d remind him that if he wasn’t going to make a shift, he needed to call the store. If this had been anyone else, I’d probably document the no-show. With Evan, I’d probably let him explain. Everybody would notice. They always did.

I turned off the office light and headed home.

Tomorrow he’d be there.

2nd Day — Night

By the time I got home, I was exhausted. Not angry. Not even particularly upset. Just worn down in the way a full day at the store could wear you down without anything dramatic actually happening.

The kitchen was still a mess.

Last night’s containers were gone, but there were dishes in the sink, mail spread across the counter, and a pan sitting on the stove from whatever Janet had made herself earlier. There wasn’t dinner waiting. Janet was in the living room with her laptop open, wearing loose sweatpants and an oversized sweatshirt, blonde hair pulled back with no makeup on.

I stood there looking at her longer than I meant to. She was beautiful. I knew that. So why did she dress like that at home?

That thought annoyed me almost immediately because home was exactly where somebody should be able to dress however they wanted. Janet had worked all day too. She wasn’t going anywhere. She had no reason to put on a dress and heels to sit on the couch answering emails.

Still.

Would it kill her to make an effort? I hated how reasonable that sounded in my head.

“You eat?” she asked without looking up.

“No.”

“There are leftovers.”

I looked toward the refrigerator. “That’s dinner?”

Janet finally looked at me. “Unless you want something else.”

“I just thought maybe something home-made would have been nice.”

Her expression changed. “I worked today, Bill.”

“I know.”

“Then what are you saying?”

“I’m not saying anything.”

“You’re standing in the kitchen staring at the dishes and making comments about dinner.”

I opened the refrigerator harder than necessary. “The place is a mess.”

Janet closed the laptop. “Then clean it.”

That landed harder than it should have. “I just got home.”

“So did I.”

“Earlier than me.”

“By forty minutes.”

I knew she was right. That somehow made me angrier. Not because forty minutes was enough time to clean the house and cook dinner. Obviously it wasn’t. I knew that. The problem was that some part of me had already decided she should’ve wanted to.

“I don’t know why everything has to be an argument,” I said.

Janet stared at me. “Are you serious?”

“What?”

“You’ve been miserable lately.”

“Work’s been stressful.”

“No. You’ve had stressful weeks before. You come home now and everything bothers you.”

“That isn’t true.”

“The dishes bother you. My job bothers you. The laundry bothers you. Apparently my clothes bother you too.”

I looked at her sweatshirt. She caught it.

“Oh my God.”

“I didn’t say anything.”

“You didn’t have to.”

I rubbed my forehead. “Forget it.”

“No, I’m curious now. What’s wrong with what I’m wearing?”

“Nothing.”

“Bill.”

I looked at her. “Would it be so strange to dress nice sometimes?”

Janet actually laughed, but there wasn’t anything funny in it. “For what? Doing dishes?”

“That’s not what I mean.”

“I’m sitting in my own house after work.”

“I know.”

“Then what exactly are you expecting?”

I didn’t have an answer that wouldn’t make me sound like an asshole. The problem was I did have an answer. I wanted to come home to a clean house. Dinner. A woman who looked happy to see me. Somebody who took pride in making the place feel good instead of treating home like the recovery room between workdays.

That wasn’t Janet. Maybe it never had been. The thought had been growing all day, and standing there looking at her in sweatpants while she defended the dirty kitchen made it feel more real.

Janet stood and folded her arms. “You’ve been distant for months, Bill. You’re barely interested in me anymore, and when you are home you act like you’d rather be somewhere else. Now suddenly I’m supposed to be cooking dinner and dres for you?”

“That’s not what I said.”

“It’s what you’re implying.”

“I just think things could be better around here.”

“Then help make them better.”

Again, she was right. Again, I hated it. “I work all day.”

“So do I.”

There it was. The sentence that shouldn’t have meant anything. Instead it seemed to explain everything. So do I. That was the problem. Janet worked too.

Janet had her own priorities, her own schedule, her own career. She came home tired and expected us to split whatever was left because that was how we’d always done things.

And suddenly I couldn’t understand why I’d ever thought that was ideal.

“I don’t know what’s going on with you,” she said more quietly. “But you haven’t been yourself.”

I almost told her nothing had changed. Then stopped. Maybe something had. I just didn’t think it was me. “I said work’s been stressful.”

Janet looked at me for a long moment. “You’re distant even when you’re here.”

That one I couldn’t answer. Because she was right about that too. I looked back at the kitchen. The dishes. The clutter. The leftovers waiting in the refrigerator. Nothing about the house was worse than it had been a month ago. Nothing about Janet was different.

Somehow that only made it more irritating.

3rd Day — Morning

The next morning Janet seemed determined to pretend the night before hadn’t happened. She was already in the kitchen when I came downstairs, humming quietly while she poured coffee, bright and affectionate in a way I wasn’t ready for. “Morning, handsome,” she said, leaning over to kiss my cheek before turning back toward the counter. She looked incredible. Her blonde hair was styled neatly off her face, makeup subtle but perfect, and she wore a charcoal skirt suit that fit her like it had been tailored directly onto her body. The jacket pulled snug across her chest before narrowing at the waist, while the pencil skirt hugged her hips and ass all the way to just above the knee. She’d even put on heels. Forty-five years old and she could still walk into a room looking like every man there should notice her.

That was what got under my skin. Not that she looked good. That she looked this good to leave. I watched her bend slightly to reach into a cabinet and, for no good reason, imagined the suit replaced by something completely different: a fitted black maid dress with a snug bodice, white lace at the neckline, and a short pleated skirt that flared over her hips. A crisp white apron cinched tight around her waist and tied in a broad bow just above her ass. Sheer black stockings climbed her legs beneath the hem, held by little garters that flashed whenever she bent to wipe a cabinet or pick up a basket. Her blonde hair was pinned up, a few loose strands falling around her face, and instead of hurrying through the day she moved around the kitchen with calm, practiced purpose.

Fantasy Janet liked being there. That was the important part. She wasn’t checking the clock or mentally sorting emails while she cleaned. She enjoyed keeping things in order. She’d straighten after wiping down the counter, smooth her hands over the apron, and smile when she caught me watching because she wanted me to notice. If I told her the kitchen looked good, she’d be pleased. If I asked whether breakfast was ready, she’d tell me it was almost done and insist I sit down. Then she would present her barely covered bottom for a good spanking before going to the next task.

“Coffee?” Janet asked.

The picture vanished. She was holding out a mug and smiling.

“Yeah. Thanks.”

“You sleep okay?”

“Fine.”

She kissed me again as she ed. She really was trying. Whatever she’d felt the night before, she’d apparently decided not to carry it into the morning. I had. That was probably unfair, but knowing it didn’t make the feeling disappear.

There wasn’t breakfast waiting. That thought came automatically, and I almost laughed at myself. Janet had never been responsible for breakfast every morning. There were eggs in the refrigerator, cereal in the pantry, bread beside the toaster. I pulled out the eggs and started making them while she opened her laptop. Our daughter wandered in looking for a school form, and Janet immediately shifted her attention, asking where the trip was, what time she needed to be there, whether she’d turned in the other paperwork. She even ed an appointment the next afternoon before our daughter did.

So the idea that Janet didn’t take care of the family was obviously bullshit.

She did.

Just not in the way I’d started imagining.

I sat down with my eggs while Janet moved between her laptop, coffee, and our daughter. The suit followed every movement of her body, fitted jacket shaping her waist, skirt tight across her hips as she crossed the kitchen. She looked sharp. Capable. Successful.

And suddenly I didn’t want capable. That was the thought I couldn’t get around. I wanted soft and servile. Some deep part of me surfaced.

The image returned, only later in the day now. I came home and smelled dinner before I reached the kitchen. Janet stood at the stove with her blonde hair pinned up off her neck, wearing a little white apron over the kind of lingerie she normally saved for special occasions. A black lace balconette bra lifted her breasts high, delicate floral lace stretched tight across them, with matching high-cut panties tracing the curve of her hips and ass. A garter belt hugged her waist, holding sheer stockings smooth against her legs. The apron barely covered the center of the bra and tied snugly at the waist, its lower short enough that black lace showed whenever she reached across the stove.

She moved differently in the fantasy too. No hurry. No edge in her voice. No sense that there were six other things she’d rather be doing. She stirred a heavy pot of gravy, checked a roast in the oven, mashed potatoes with butter, then glanced over her shoulder when she heard me come in. Her whole face brightened. “You’re home,” she’d hum. Not tired. Happy. She’d wipe her hands on the apron, come over and kiss me, then steer me toward the table and tell me to sit down because dinner was almost ready. Then she’d stick her chest in front of me, presenting it for a squeeze before returning to cooking my meal.

That was what I wanted. The eagerness.

A woman who took pleasure in making home comfortable. Who wanted me to walk through the door and feel like everything outside had stopped mattering. Who wanted to cook because feeding us made her happy, wanted the place clean because she liked seeing me relax, wanted to look good at home because I was the person she cared about impressing.

I’d work. She’d handle the house. Different responsibilities. Clear ones.

The simplicity of it appealed to me more than I wanted to it.

“Why are you smiling?”

I looked up. Janet was watching me. “What?”

“You were somewhere else.”

“Just thinking.”

“Dangerous.”

She smiled when she said it, then came around the table and wrapped her arms around my shoulders from behind. Her cheek touched mine. Her perfume was familiar. “Can we have a better day today?”

That hit harder than any argument would have.

“Of course, dear.”

She squeezed me once and kissed the side of my head. “Good.”

For a second I felt like complete shit. She wasn’t fighting with me. She wasn’t holding a grudge. She was standing there looking beautiful, being affectionate, trying to repair something I had helped damage.

Then she walked away and opened her laptop again. And the fantasy slipped back in anyway.

Our daughter came downstairs asking where her black hoodie was. Janet told her it was in the dryer. When she asked Janet to get it because she was running late, Janet laughed and told her, “You have legs.” Our daughter groaned and went to get it herself. I almost thought Janet should have done it for her, then stopped myself. She was sixteen. Janet was right.

That was becoming the irritating part. Janet kept being right. She was a good mother. She worked hard. She was affectionate. She looked after herself. She’d built the exact marriage we’d both agreed to build. I was the one moving the goalposts.

Janet closed her laptop and slipped it into her bag. “You taking her today?”

“I can.”

Her face brightened. “Thank you.”

She came over and kissed me properly. I kissed her back.

She hadn’t changed. Same career, same independence, same woman I’d spent twenty-one years with. This morning she’d even gone out of her way to be loving after the night before.

What had changed was what I wanted.

And I was starting to suspect that if Janet suddenly became the woman in my head, maid outfit, dinner waiting, eager smile and all, I still wouldn’t want her the way I wanted Evan.

3rd Day — Work

By the time I got to work, I’d mostly convinced myself the morning with Janet had been fine. Better than fine, probably. She’d kissed me goodbye. I’d driven our daughter where she needed to go. Nobody had argued. Whatever was happening between Janet and me could wait until I had enough energy to figure it out. Evan was the thing I couldn’t stop thinking about.

He hadn’t answered my call or text from yesterday. I checked both before I even put my things away. Nothing. His shift wasn’t until 10, and I told myself that was good. He’d walk in, I’d ask what happened, he’d give me some explanation, and things would go back to normal. I had already decided I wasn’t writing him up. I could document the missed shift later if I needed to, but there was no point doing paperwork before hearing him out. That was the explanation I gave myself, anyway.

At 9:30, I checked the front doors even though I knew he wasn’t due yet. At 9:45, I found a reason to walk through the front end. By 9:55, I’d stopped pretending I wasn’t waiting for him. 10 came. Then 10:05. Nothing. I went into the office and closed the door. One call yesterday had been enough for an employee. This was different now. He’d missed a shift without calling and wasn’t here for the next one. Any manager would follow up. I could call him. I was supposed to call him. That made it easier to press the button.

He answered. “Hey, Bill.”

For one stupid second I couldn’t say anything. I’d spent almost an entire day wanting to hear his voice, and now that I had it, everything I’d planned disappeared. “Bill?” “Hi, Evan.” Even to me, my voice sounded wrong. Too soft. I leaned back in the chair and tried to why I was calling. Manager. Employee. Missed shift. “You weren’t here yesterday.” “Yeah.” “I thought maybe you were sick.” “Nope.” “Oh.”

That wasn’t what I’d expected. I don’t know what I’d expected. Flu. Car trouble. Family emergency. Anything that explained why he hadn’t answered me and why I’d spent the better part of twenty-four hours wondering whether something had happened to him. Instead he was fine. I should’ve been relieved. Mostly I was hurt.

“I called once,” I said. “Yesterday. You didn’t answer.” “I was busy.” “Right. Of course.” Busy. Perfectly reasonable. Evan had a life. Whatever he’d been doing yesterday had nothing to do with me. There was no reason he should have stopped it because Bill from work was calling. Knowing that didn’t make the answer feel any better.

“So am I in trouble or something?” he asked.

“What? No. I mean, you missed work, so I should probably...” I stopped. Probably what? Document it? Tell him this couldn’t happen again? Give him the same speech I’d given him a dozen times and then find some reason not to follow through? That wasn’t why I’d called. The truth came out before I could stop it. “I just missed you… yesterday… you know.”

Silence.

My stomach dropped. Jesus Christ, Bill.

“You missed me?”

I looked at the closed office door. I could’ve fixed it. Said I meant the shift. The department. We were short a person. Something normal. “Bill?” Instead I said, “You brightened up the place.”

There. I’d said it. Not everything. Not even close. But enough that my face felt hot sitting alone in my own office. For years I’d found ways to say things around what I actually meant. Good work today meant I liked having you here. Let me know when you get home meant I worried about you. Sure, you can leave early meant I couldn’t stand being the reason you were unhappy. Every schedule adjustment, every extra conversation, every bit of slack I’d given him had been some safer version of the same thing.

I love you. You brightened up the place was apparently as close as I could get.

“Bill, hold on.” “Oh. Sure.” I waited. There was nothing for several seconds. I could hear faint movement on his end but no explanation. No apology. I wondered if I’d finally made him uncomfortable enough that he was trying to figure out how to get off the phone. Then he came back. “Sorry.” “That’s okay.” “Bill.” “Yeah?” “I quit.”

My brain simply refused to process the sentence.

“What?!”

“I quit.”

I stood so quickly the chair rolled backward into the wall. “Evan, wait. We can talk about this. If this is because of yesterday, you’re not in trouble. I wasn’t angry. I just...” I stopped myself again. “You don’t have to quit.”

“I know.”

That made it worse. If he’d thought I was angry, I could fix angry. If he needed time, I could give him time. If he hated the schedule, I’d change the schedule. There were a hundred problems I could solve as his manager. “You could take some time off. Or we could change your schedule. If something’s going on, I can work around it. I don’t mind.” I heard myself offering him practically anything and didn’t care. Days off. Different hours. Fewer shifts. More shifts. Whatever kept his name on that schedule. Whatever meant there was still a reason for him to walk through those doors.

“Bill.” “Yeah?” “I’m not coming back.”

Something dropped out of me. Not anger. Not even surprise anymore. Just a hollow little feeling somewhere beneath my ribs. “Oh.” I sat back down. The schedule was open on the desk in front of me. Evan Peters. Ten o’clock. I’d written his name there. For years there had always been another shift. If he left early, he’d be back tomorrow. If we argued, I’d see him later in the week. If I embarrassed myself staring too long or letting him get away with something, there would always be another ordinary day to cover it up. Now there wasn’t.

“I just thought...” I started, then stopped. I thought you’d come back. I thought I’d see you today. I thought I had more time. “Never mind.”

“Later, Bill.”

“Evan, wait—”

The call ended.

I kept the phone against my ear for another second before lowering it. That was it. No fight. No dramatic goodbye. He’d just quit. Technically, I had things to do. Remove his remaining shifts. Find coverage. Start whatever separation paperwork we needed. Make sure payroll had his hours right. Normal manager shit. I’d done it plenty of times.

Instead I sat there staring at his name on the schedule.

I’d spent years telling myself this was manageable because I didn’t need anything from Evan. I had Janet. I had my daughter. I had a home. Evan was just this thing I carried privately, something I could enjoy without letting it destroy the rest of my life. But that had only worked because I got him five days a week. A few minutes here. A conversation there. Watching him come through the doors. Hearing his voice. Knowing when I’d see him again.

I looked at tomorrow’s schedule. His name was there too. Then Friday. Then Saturday. All those little promises that Evan would still be part of my life. None of them meant anything anymore.

For the first time since I’d met him, I didn’t know when I was going to see Evan again.

Couple Days Later

Evan quitting felt enormous inside my head, but the store didn’t care. Trucks still arrived. People still called out. Somebody needed a refund approved. Produce was short two cases of something. I moved through all of it like I always did, and by late afternoon I’d taken Evan off the schedule and found coverage for the rest of the week. His name disappeared one shift at a time until there was no reason for me to keep looking at it.

The last thing I needed to do was start his separation paperwork. That was how I ended up staring at his employee file. Name. Phone number. Emergency . Address. I’d seen all of it before, of course. I was his manager. There were forms I’d handled when he was hired, updates over the years, payroll information, the usual istrative crap nobody thought about unless something changed. I knew roughly where Evan lived because he’d mentioned it before, but the address on the screen wasn’t the place I ed. Halloway. I read it twice. It meant nothing to me at first, just a street and a number in an expensive part of town. I copied what I needed for the termination paperwork, closed the file, then opened it again just to make sure I’d entered everything correctly. That was bullshit. I looked at the address until I knew it. I didn’t write it down. That distinction felt important for about five seconds.

Evan didn’t work for me anymore. There was no schedule issue to discuss, no missed shift, no reason to check on him. He’d answered the phone, told me he was fine, and quit. Whatever professional excuse I’d had for ing him ended the second he said he wasn’t coming back. Still, my mind kept trying to make another one. Maybe I should make sure he understood his final check. Maybe there was company property he needed to return. Maybe quitting over the phone wasn’t enough and I should speak to him in person. None of that required me to go to his house. I knew that.

I drove home from work anyway. For about six minutes. Then I turned at an intersection I had no reason to turn at. I wasn’t going to Evan’s house. I was just driving. That was the first lie. Traffic was bad, so I took another road, then another, telling myself I was curious about the neighborhood. Evan had apparently moved, and there was nothing strange about wondering where somebody you’d known for years had ended up. Second lie. At a stoplight I pulled out my phone and typed the address into the map. Twenty-three minutes. I could still go home.

Janet would probably already be there. Maybe she’d be wearing sweats. Maybe there’d be takeout. Maybe she’d be in that suit again, home from work and kicking off her heels while asking how my day had been like everything between us was still basically normal. The other Janet appeared automatically too: hair pinned up, little apron, dinner on the stove, that eager smile when I came through the door. For once the fantasy didn’t comfort me. Even with Janet turned into exactly the woman I’d decided I wanted, I was sitting in my car thinking about Evan.

I started driving. Just ing by. Third lie.

The neighborhoods changed as I went. Smaller homes gave way to larger ones, then to properties hidden behind walls and landscaping. I checked the map twice because I assumed I’d missed a turn. I hadn’t. The route ended at a gate, and I slowed. “This can’t be right.” It was. The property stretched farther back than I could properly see from the road, landscaped grounds opening beyond the gate with a long drive disappearing toward a house that looked more like something built for a family with its name on hospitals than a guy who’d worked for me at a grocery store two days ago.

Evan lived here?

Something about seeing the place made his quitting feel different. At the store, Evan had belonged to my world. Same fluorescent lights, same break room, same schedules printed every week. I knew when he’d arrive, where he’d be, when he’d leave. This was money, privacy, gates, enough property that somebody could disappear behind it and never have to think about a grocery store manager again. Never have to think about me.

I drove past. I’d seen the place. Curiosity satisfied. Now I could go home. I made it less than half a mile before turning around. Just checking that he’s okay. Fourth lie. He’d already told me he was okay.

I pulled near the entrance and sat there. Going onto the property would be crossing a line I couldn’t uncross. Driving past was weird. Knocking on his door was something else. Then my phone buzzed. Janet.

Want me to grab dinner on the way home?

Yesterday I would’ve found something wrong with that question. Another dinner she wasn’t cooking. Another example of the marriage I’d decided wasn’t working properly. Now it just made me tired. Sure, I typed. Whatever you want. She sent back a heart.

Twenty-one years. A daughter. A house. A woman who had spent the morning kissing me and trying to put our argument behind us because she still wanted us to be okay. I should’ve started the car and gone home.

Instead I looked through the gate and finally stopped dressing it up as anything else.

I needed to see Evan.

No manager. No employee. No concern about a missed shift. Just me sitting outside his house because I needed him. For years, work had made that easy to ignore. I got enough of Evan there that I never had to find out what I’d do without him. Now I knew.